urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:miszlisa1007 miszlisa1007 miszlisa1007 2006-07-02T21:41:27Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:miszlisa1007:1003 2006-07-02T21:41:27Z 2006-07-02T21:41:27Z S0 i'VE BEEN THiNKiNG AND i'VE D0NE <u>ABS0LUTELY</u> N0THiNG WiTH MY LiFE THAT i CANN L00K BACK 0N AND BE LiKE <i>"W0W! i CAN'T BELiEVE i DiD THAT!"</i> 0R <i>"THAT WAS THE BEST TiME 0F MY LiFE!"</i> SAD? DEPRESSiNG? RiDiCUL0US? <b>YES</b> T0 ALL 3. i JUST FEEL S0 UNACC0MPLiSHED iN MY 17 YEARS 0F LiViNG, AND THAT'S BAD. i'M 17 AND i HAVEN'T EVEN HAD A <u>DECENT</u> J0B BEF0RE! ALM0ST ALL 0F MY FRiENDS HAVE HAD M0RE THAN 1 J0B 0VER THE PAST FEW YEARS. BUT iT'S N0T JUST THE WH0LE J0B THiNG..iT'S JUST EVERYTHiNG...<br /><br><br />SCH00L...i'M G0NNA BE G0iNG T0 A C0MMUNiTY C0LLEGE! N0T THAT THERE'S ANYTHiNG WR0NG WiTH A C0MMUNiTY C0LLEGE, iT'S JUST THAT i <b>NEVER</b> SAW MYSELF G0iNG T0 A C0MMUNiTY C0LLEGE. iT'S JUST LiKE i HAD iT iN ME, T0 D0 G00D & G0 AB0VE AND BEY0ND, BUT i DiDN'T. F0R S0ME UNEXPLAiNED REAS0N--i DiDN'T D0 EVERYTHiNG i DiD T0 MY HiGHEST ABiLiTY...AND i'M REGRETTiNG THAT THE M0ST RiGHT N0W. <br /><br><br />FRiENDS...YEAH i HAVE MANY...YEAH THEY'RE AMAZiNG BUT i KiNDA FEEL LiKE i HAVEN'T BEEN DOiNG ANYTHiNG TO LiKE MAKE NEW FRiENDS, LiKE EXPAND MY CiRCLE 0F FRiENDS. AND NOW'S A G00D & BAD TiME T0 D0 THAT; MANY PEOPLE HAVE MOVED AND ARE G0iNG T0 C0LLEGE AND THiNGS JUST W0N'T BE THE SAME.<br /><br><br />i D0N'T KNOW, MAYBE i'M OVERANALYZiNG EVERYTHiNG LiKE i NORMALLY DO...iT'S JUST WEiRD THAT EVERYTHiNG'S CHANGiNG SO FAST...